Life in near future will be alone again
really alone without anyone close beside me .
and no office to go
as I have no business except the case and lost money to chase
cannot travel
I will try not to get new friends
I want to be alone
better than in toxic relationship
look on bright side and try to live alone
going out made me drink wine
buy wine
chat with new friends I met
I have to stop going out and drink wine
need to stay on path of enlightenment
no need to meet them again.
sorry
no socializing
no drinking
no eating out
how can I be so low a person to be insulted by my own kid
how can she be so proud of herself to insult me
I feel sad when ever I think about it
anyway I wish the best for them
I don't want them to be in bad luck because of their act
They think I am the stupid person
and I am really
dumb and stupid
but I always have a good heart and they should know it
and yet they insult me big way
not returnable
sorry about that
I have to cut all ties
prepare for my death without any strings
been to alliance france garden party
nice to chat and drink wine and eat pizza
make new friends
came back to rest for my tired back
I very much pray that the con man come down on his knees and pay back my money .
if there is justice in this world it should be it.
Vipassana
lay people only live for fun and good things
they don't think about bad things
so when they meet bad things they suffer a lot
if one look for good and bad
as a natur e
they can stand bad luck
also don't indulge in good things
there are good and bad things in life
easy to think
look at good things
good to have a human life
and can enjoy good things
people find happy things
they are happy with what ever
enjoyable things in life
sufferable life is when they cannot have what they wish
youth get old
cannot get younger
cannot be free of diseases
always moving towards bad path
31 to 40 years old beauty
41 to 50 educate highest in life
51 to 60
downfall of youth strength
uphill and downhill
till death
if you have not thought about this
if you say enjoy yourself life is too short
you cannot avoid aging sickness and death
vipassna is looking at bad things
look for suffering
not to get to nirvana
main thing about vipassana is looking at suffering
annata , no control , it will happen
that's why you don't panic when it happens
you can face it
what to do as Buddha said
wish of people
4 things
regretting the sales of two rings I asked him whether I can buy back paying profit for them
he said he will check
I lit candle and incense stick this morning at the shrine despite John told me not to do .
He asked me to wait till he goes back .
I feel bad
I air the room opening windows
I will do it outside next time.
sorry!
no one should be with me as I like to do without asking anyone's permission.
I bought myself an earring yesterday from gems show room.
The girl asked me to go
she wants to spend money inspite of her situation
I have to buy something as I cannot go without buying anything
I don't want to be impolite
I have already donate two times for 200 families in Thanlyin . Have promised another month donation once I get the money for second time payment for selling 35th street apartment.
I hope to have some more cash come in for my own expenses so I can continue doing donation for poor families.
Looks like people will be jobless for a long haul since covid plus politics.
Please I pray I can continue to help save the starving families for a year at least.
vaccinate so can travel
I have to do on 27th
been to monastery and donate
I need to be less blabber mouth
2012 Feb the end of a dream I realized
struggled for another decade and finally give up ...
I was so blind
it was fine in his country , only here he started targeting me as he had with his colleagues in his jobs ..
it all started when coming back here in 2010
TV s are not working , my netflix is also payment problem and I stopped it as my visa is stolen money by e dreams website.
case move up again so another judge
all wasted
now they want another case
another cash cow for them?
25 plus 35 60 already and later another 25
one case and what more
struggling not to eat dinner as I have stomach pain at night if I eat especially spicy food and fried foods.
it is 6 pm now , can I stay with out food till morning?
twice a day
have to use gold serum as well and golden mask is once a week.
lets see the improvement , supposed to firm the skin by platinum.
after getting the exchange of Kedma cream , the golden city apartment bills are paid for 3 months.
went to HLA spa for massage .
Now 63 $ left in the card with two slim sets to do and then two dinners and four drinks.
I told the woman who took my money that i will take care of her daughter's education if they give back my money plus interests that I lost. She thanked me . Hopefully they will do as they promised and will pay back my money.
my neck pain and left arm gets pain as I play solitaire on computer
no more games for me from now onwards.
I am going to kedma shop at junction square to change with new boxes as I believe they have sold me old ones they are using as test kits.
I am disappointed and will never go there again after wards.
thunder and rain in Yangon , end of the season, lucky that yesterday was no rain on full moon day and people can go to pagodas with clear sky.
such heavy rain and the garden almost flooded
kitchen area rain leaking
a lot
spend money on facial products again ,
enough for lifetime
they are so expensive
I don't need to go anymore
just have to use the products at home.
ordered french restaurant , quiche is not that good, crepe is just okay, huge loaf of bread and mushroom sauce and ravioli to prepare for dinner , I only took crepe , hubby appreciate quiche, I don't want to order from that restaurant again.
Life is depressing as I have recovered from Covid and almost died in August. I was lucky that I did not have it in July when oxygen had shortage in the city as everyone bought and stored in case of covid and centers were not open.
In August oxygen supply is abundant at centers thanks to the military government management. Medicines became available as well though the prices are still a bit high. It is disgusting how people made money out of epidemic hoarding medicines , food, oxygen supplies.
They will go to hell next life . They also buy dollars and gold to make people panic .
They think that will destabilize the country and army will fall . The truth is only people suffer and army will never fall . Our country has only one strong institution and it is army.
Things are in its worst state for me in my whole life.
I will not feel despair for the loss of my wealth as it is only for inheritance of me for my kids.
For myself to survive in old age , I have enough to sell off and live on.
surely I pray everyday for the case to settle and correct the injustice of con people that took my fortune away .
went to aung san monastery for pathan saying event invited by zar chi
have fasting 8 silk so I will not have dinner today
I can drink coffee
got 88 for deposit of small apartment downtown.
8 to donate for starving families
many families are starving because of covid for two years now and not able to get jobs.
there are more cars on the street this week
hope it is almost over
next month people can get jobs as rain stops and covid stops and no quarantine
I am glad to be able to help 200 families with some food last time and this time..
hopefully I don't need to do next month anymore as conditions will be better
I also do not want to make it a habit and make them like beggars ..
they have to work and earn when things go back to normal.
today we went to Chatrium to eat the lobby
nice place
Japanese's sushi there and coffee and all , quite pleasant and we are happy
intend to spend the rest of the days visiting hotel lobby coffee shops and enjoy .
